whisky and cigarettes

von

i am bombarded by my thoughts
of things that i’ve done
am i out of my mind?
absent from reality
drifting away from sanity
am i out of my mind?

close to the abyss
reality is gone
i sing with my demons
the song of being torn

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midnight thoughts
and
bruised lungs
a war inside me
that i cannot win

forgive me
for the mess that i am
love me
for the mess that i am